It started with my public exams...kind of like the SAT..it decides which college i go to.I wanted to do well in it and i was like studying all time,really burning the midnight oil,i was upto like 3 most days and 5 somedays.

Then on the tests I got really really tensed and I didnt do well.I didnt even think something like this would happen or else I could have been prepared for it or something.It is only for these stupid multiple choice tests,I just jump out at the first answer that looks correct and then feel bad for marking it after noticing something wrong with my answer and there isnt a provision for correcting it.There are a few papers and no matter how hard I studied I couldnt do well on any one of them.And when the results came its bad,not really really bad,i can still get into some decent college but not what i want or even if i do i cannot get any course that atleat makes sense

Then the next thing....

I was staying at my bestfriend's house for the last week,his dad had gone out of state on some official business.I and my bestfriend are like twins,its like we can read each other's mind,he would say something like i can find a date for you and i would instantly know who he is thinking about and its the same when i do it,we are really close.So I was staying at his house and we talk everyday like upto 3 in the morning and then go to bed and then talk upto 5 in the bed.then we would wake up after 2 or 3 hours then talk till the eve and something like that and today i came back home and his dad asked him what he was doing and he said we did nothing and his dad told him that "if you go to the movies or something its okay but if two boys stated on an apartment the whole day and did nothing then theres something wrong",his dad said it like i am gay or something.

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i doesnt matter if you do your best,what matters is doing whatever it takes